Unwritten…

As I was trying to figure out what I was going to write for this weeks blog prompt of “What’s next?”, the only thing that came to my mind was the song “Unwritten.”  

When I was getting ready to graduate from high school, my friend made a mixed CD for our friend group.  She then went as far as to dedicate a song to each of us.  The song each of us was one that reminded her of us as we parted ways.  “Unwritten” was the song that was dedicated to me that year.  It has off and on come back to my mind and I realize just how true this song is of my life.  

Many times in the last several years, I have had absolutely no idea what my life looked like.  It was as if there was a blank page in front of me and it could tell whatever story I wished to tell.  Of course I know that God has our story already written, but He does not give us a copy of the manuscript of our lives.  He allows us to live and experience each day with a fresh look and new expectations.  

As I am looking ahead to what’s next for me, I really don’t know much.  I know I am doing leadership track from January until the beginning of May.  Then I will be the Financial Director for FUGE Camps in Philadelphia for the summer.  But come August, it is most certainly a blank page.  I have no idea what adventure Papa has in store for me at that point.  

It has taken me a while to be okay with this.  I struggled with comparing myself to those around me who were making 2 year or more commitments to foreign missions, to those who were finding jobs where they felt right and at home with, to those who are pursuing higher education, and to so many other people who seemed to know what they were doing with their lives.  

But God has taught me to be present where I am and the season that He has me in.  He has taught me that He has me where I am for a reason and a purpose.  He has taught me to trust His timing and His plan.  He has taught me over the last year and a half to fully trust Him. 

I have been asked what I am doing after this and I really don’t have an answer.  I am now okay with that answer.  I am okay with the future being unwritten. I am okay with not knowing what is waiting for me.  I AM UNWRITTEN!